A Famous Line

Dumb E-mails that you just HAVE to do... Your turn!

2006-01-13T13:56:00.000-05:00

10 firsts.
first girlfriend/boyfriend: Jerry
first best friend: Carolyn first
screen name: Mercury217
first kiss: Ryan something…
first crush: Brian Hash
first music (CD): Pearl Jam - 10
first car: Bonnevillefirst stuffed animal: a teddy bear
first time you drove legally: June 21, 1996
first Job: Northern Reflections @ the mall

9 lasts.
last cigarette: over a year and ½ ago
last kiss: this morning
last movie seen: X-men 2
last cd played: 311 – Don’t Tread on me
last bubble bath: July 10, 2005
last time you cried: a few weeks ago
last relationship: still going strong
last book read: Anansi Boys by Neil Gaymain
last place you visited on vacation: Chicago

8 have you evers.
have you ever dated one of your best friends: yes
have you ever skinny dipped: yes *blush*
have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: yes
have you ever fallen in love: yes.
have you ever lost someone you loved: yes
have you ever been depressed: yes
have you ever lied: yes
have you ever been fired: yes *blush*

7 states you've been to.
1. Massachusetts
2. Illinois
3. New Hampshire
4. New York
5. Rhode Island
6. Florida
7. South Carolina

6 things you've done today.
1. Played on the computer
2. woke my boyfriend up
3. Fed the cats
4. ate an orange
5. updated my blog
6. Talked to my sister

5 favorite things in no order.
1. Blu
2. Sprite and Mercury (they come as a pair)
3. Thumper
4. My cape cod bracelets
5. the necklace my parents gave me when I gradated from College

4 people you can tell [almost] anything to (no order).
1. John
2. Kerri
3. Brenna
4. Carolyn

3 wishes.
1. I wish I had no debt
2. I wish I owned a house/condo of my own (with a garden)
3. I wish I could fly...

2 things you want to do before you die.
1. have a baby with someone I love
2. retire and travel

1 thing you regret.
1. not starting my Masters yet

hmmmm cookies...said in Homer Simpson Style

2006-01-06T14:57:00.000-05:00

Today I all want to do is eat. And I am not even hungry...at least I don't think I am.
All week I have been very good. Healthy breakfast. 2 or 3 pieces of fruit. light dinner. gym (at least 50 mins). then today hit...I want chocolate...chinese food and anything else you can think of.

ok. so I'm over that for right now.

I am looking forward to this weekend. I am heading back to Western Mass. But it is a bit odd because my parents don't live there anymore (they moved after 27 years in the same house). I am heading to see one of my closest friends who I am sad to say I haven't seen in over a year!!! But life got busy, she is married with a son who is 6. I am creating my own life (which is going quite well). And we are over 2 hours away from each other so its hard to see each other
as often as we would like. I AM SO EXCITED!!! I know we are going to drive her husband and my boyfriend with all of our talking...I CAN'T WAIT!!!!

This song is stuck in my head...what's in yours?

2006-01-03T18:52:00.000-05:00

"Pick Yer Nose"

Ani Difranco

How come I can pick my ears

but not my nose

who made up that rule anyway

how can you say that's the way it

is that's just the way it goes

why don't you decide for yourself

what you can do

and what you can say

how come I can pick my friends

but not my enemies

what is it about me that offends

what is it about me

'cause you know I'm only five foot two

and I'm giggly wiggly

tell me again, what did I do

why are you scared of me

I fight with love

and I laugh with rage

you've gotta live light enough

to see the humour

and long enough to see some change

I think shy is boring

I think depressed is too

I think pretty is nice

but I'd rather see something new

all these plastic people

got their plastic surgery

but we got a big big beautiful

we got it for free

who you gonna be

if you can't be yourself

you can't get it from t.v.

you can't force it on

anybody else

you know they come to clear cut

they come to strip mine

they come for some of my big butt

my big brain

or just a little time

they wanna take me out to dinner

think I'm a bitch if I don't go

seems like the people who actually like me

won't allow me to say no

your idea of a conversation

is the third degree

but I don't really know you

and I don't really want to talk about me

'cause I'm not going to pretend

that I don't pick my nose

that's just the way it is, my friends

that's just the way it goes

this is who I am

what I do

and what I say

if you like it, let it be

if you don't, please do the same

I fight with love

I laugh with rage

you gotta live light enough to see the humour

and long enough to see some change

January....

2006-01-02T19:45:00.000-05:00

People always talk about new starts, new promises, new lives, new bodies...but here we are two days into the New Year and nothing has really changed except the year on my checks.

So what will you change this year?

Me? I have a lot I am "working" on. Better health, going to the gym more, saving money and so on. But do you really need a New Year to start working on yourself? I guess most people use it as an excuse. Me included.

But here is to a New Year, a better me, and remembering every day is a new start.

Cheers.

Christmas and Hanukkah

2005-12-23T13:44:00.000-05:00

Are you ready for Santa??? Or Hanukkah Harry???

To Move or Not to Move…

2005-12-22T15:14:00.000-05:00

I had my heart set on a new apartment, big master bedroom, big kitchen, extra bedroom/office, large living room, and a bathroom with a tub (it has been a long time since I have had a big bathroom or a tub!! – my bathroom now is so small the cats can’t even be in there with out bumping into each other).

So I called my landlord last week. The conversation began with him asking if I was moving out. After trying to explain to him I didn’t feel safe and was for the moment keeping my options open. His wife started yelling in the background “The 1st floor is moving out before the 1st!! She is moving!! I have it in writing from her.” My heart sank. Do I move? Do I stay?

I could stay and save the money I would have been spending for this new place. Yet I hadn’t heard back about the new apartment yet. So my landlord asked again “Julia, will you be moving out?”

“No, I will be staying as long as she moves out.”

I know this is the right choice. I can save money and look at buying something in a few years. Yes, this is the right choice. (I hope) Last Friday I was home, she was not. All weekend and up until this morning the 1st floor was MIA.

I felt so comfortable (again). My girls where happy – hell, I was happy! I liked being in my apartment – it had been a long time since I felt this way.

Then it happened. Her car was there this morning.

Damn it!

Ok, I know I was told Jan 1st was when she would be gone. I will have to be patient (not the easiest thing for me) and wait to see if she moves out. I hope I made the right choice…I turned down the new apartment…and it had a tub!

Moving Time!!

2005-12-12T20:37:00.000-05:00

I'm sorry I have been MIA for the last week or so. Right now I am in the middle of a nasty neighbor war. So after a few visits from the cops, a field trip to court and a few conversations with the boy and my friends-the ruling came-It's time to move. (sound the trumpets, horns and whatever else you can find to play)

I would ideally like to find a nice two bedroom apartment...hopefully not to expensive. So I have begun the hunt. The girls don't know it yet but life will be turned up side down...Sprite tends to want to get in the boxs, Mercury wants to hide from them (she will walk by them and hiss). So I will begin the process of packing and stacking...anything to make this move easy. Easy being the key word. Because less then two years ago I ended up moving twice in just about two months. I really have to give my family and friends a lot of credit - I am not sure how much sanity I had left once it was over. And durning all of this my boyfriend and I had just started dating. Yes I will go out with you...as your first act of boyfriend...would you help move me, my apartment and 2 cats?? and he did.

So If my postings are a bit far apart...I might not have internet or be painting, packing, cleaning and I am sure much more over then next few weeks.

I can't wait to get out of this place and make a new home!!

Dinner Time...

2005-12-03T14:04:00.000-05:00

Right now I find myself thinking, dreaming, and wanting...FOOD... all of time. When my Endocrinologist began to explain to me that I needed to lose some weight (something I have been trying to do and wanted to do anyways) I almost missed the next statement that he made.

" If you don't lost some serious weight over the next 6 months you will become a Type 2 Diabetic." wait...WHAT?? so I got angry, got sad, got some advice from friends and family and then got my butt to the Nutritionist. She did give me great hints and ideas. A serving of meat should be the size of your palm, when you go out to eat - put 1/2 of your meal into a take home box, keep fruit in the house, don't keep chocolate in the house (damn it!).

Keep a food diary. I have been doing pretty well with the diary because I know that I need to write what I eat down and it will cause me to second guess what I am going to eat (sometimes). I have been doing really well with this and have lost about 15 pounds so far. It feels good. But food is always on my mind.

I do find that I am making better choices, smart snacks but I am running out of ideas. So I am looking for food ideas. Please share your recipes, snack ideas, suggestions...I am open to anything...expect cottage cheese...YUCK!

New Beginnings

2005-11-28T22:59:00.000-05:00

I am new to this world of "blogging" - one of my closest friends introduced me through her site Six Until Me - Kerri told me when she started it...If you can't find what you're looking for...make your own. So here I go...

About a year ago (give or take) I began to have cluster migrianes, close to 4 or 5 headaches a week then began the kidney problems. I remember telling my PCP pretty regularly...something is not right, I just don't feel right.
It took a nasty kidney infection and kidney stones and my PCP not listening to me to find a new doctor.

So my new doctor listened, but not only did she listen, she heard me. She tested me for just about everything she could think of that might be causing a million and one things that just where a little bit off. I was diagnosed with a thyroid condition called Hashimoto's disease...sounds more like a cartoon than a disease...my thyroid was underactive and my body was attacking the gland. My boyfriend did some research and found that the symptoms outlined me. Extremely exhausted, moody (and not just PMS) sensitive to cold, hot flashes, inappropriate weight gain and a few more that I won't list.

My body is pretty pissed off but slowly getting better. I have some great doctors on my side and know that I will get use to this change of life.

I am not sure what this blog will be about... but I look forward to this new adventure.